a blurry picture of health

I'm not sure if it's the lack of rest or an impending flu or the generic caffeine tablet I took this morning but I am far from feeling my best today. After another fitful night I woke up for the last time feeling too drained to sit up let alone jump around the living room for an hour with Billy Blanks (hence the caffeine pill, but retrospectively not a good decision). Why is your bed always warmest and comfiest when you have to get out of it? So here I sit woozy and dizzy and wishing I could spend half an hour under a hot shower and jump right back under the covers.

During some early hour of the morning I was online chatting to a friend from Winnipeg who I will see in less than a week. She was telling me about the weekend and what everyone had been up to and I realized how far removed from that life I am now, and how little I wanted to be a part of it (besides seeing them, of couse), and told her as such. She retorted with a well-meaning comment about how I would still be there working for *insert name of former employer here* and I literally became nauseated. Right then and there I was solidified in the (current)knowledge that if it never got any better than flying solo in an office at FIP and the IPSF Welfare Flat, it would be better than going back.

Wow what a downer this is today, n'est pas? Sorry. It's the meningitis talking (or maybe it's excipients in that cheap-o Wake-Ups knock-offs, or lack of food. I didn't really eat dinner last night and didn't feel like breakfast, Stella's or otherwise).

I spoke to the Bride-to-Be on the phone this weekend and realized how much I miss her. I am so happy to share and help in her wedding and, well, happiness! She is again one of those people I am so thankful to know and have shared time with. She is a fabulous person although relishingly indulgent in all things of vanity and in just the right amount of sarcasm. We get on well, hehehehe.

But this Saturday will thus begin the Autumn Travel Schedule. Let the in-flight movies be entertaining, the re-heated meals palatable, and the luggage belts be always flush with my bags...